Introduction

We all need to harness the power of our stories, to see the worth in the steps we've taken. Because others come after us, stumbling. They follow the same crooked paths, looking for sign posts, just as we did. And just as important, perhaps more important, is the power in the story that we are creating at this moment.

I realized this after my partner of 9 years committed suicide. I realized this after my heart broke and my identity -- my ego -- died with him, and I chose to continue on living. I realized nothing was holding me back from sharing my story. Because when the thing you've been most afraid of happening for 9 years actually happens, you find out that you were handed these cards for a reason, and that there is nothing left to fear after your worst fear has come to pass.

My partner's sudden and traumatic death on March 26, 2024 left me broken, but propelled my spiritual life forward at lightning speed. I've been a practicing Pagan and Witch for about 8 years, a path my partner helped me onto. Before that I was a devout Christian. And after my partner's death, I was introduced to the teachings of Eckhart Tolle, and his books 'The Power of Now' and 'A New Earth: Awakening Your Life's Purpose'. These books changed my perspective, perhaps even saved me from the same course of life my partner was on.

If this blog goes according to plan (which few things do), I will tell my story, touching on topics of death & grief, transitions & transformation, dreams & reality, gods, fear, faith, ancestors, and nature. This is just one narrative told through the lens of one being, but I believe others will see familiarity in these words as well. Hopefully this familiarity will go beyond into a deeper realm of oneness. Because we are not as separate as we perceive ourselves to be. We all struggle with the same themes in life. The details are different, but we are, deep down, the same. We are more than those struggles. We are more than our beliefs, more than the thoughts we think and the emotions we feel, more than our opinions, personality, achievements, and more than our stories. Without all those things, things we ultimately lose our hold on once death is upon us, what are we?

What we truly are underneath all that unnecessary noise is completely inseparable from Divinity. Jesus realized this about himself, and his life's mission was to spread that message to others. Psalm 82:6 “I said, ‘You are gods, and all of you are the sons of the Most High.'” The noise in our minds buries that truth in ceaseless thought. But we can choose to not identify with that noise and wake up our true self. Once you do, anything is possible.

We are all like a cauldron, churning with all the ingredients we need to create, symbols of infinite potential, symbols of transmogrification and magic. When aligned with our highest selves, we can manifest whatever life we want.